turning 39 is certainly weird. I don’t feel 39. My 39 doesn’t look at all like what my parents looked like at 39. I didn’t think I was going to live past 30, so having cleared almost another decade seems even more surreal. I’ve certainly been plagued more with the questions of what am I doing? Is this how everyday of the rest of my life is going to go? Am I happy? Am I doomed to never figure out balance in my life and not feel a slave to clock and an inbox? Will I ever get to all of the ideas I have in my head, let alone the shared ones Craig and I have? Where do I want to call home? What do I need to be inspired and do the work that I love? Needless to […]
A little collage of 2016 for me. Some absolutely wonderful memories, some incredibly stressful memories and some very sad memories. This past year I lost my grandmother due to medical complications, and my fur buddy of 17 years fought for her last breaths by my side. My stress peaked to cause complete havoc in my body requiring a biopsy to confirm I didn’t have cancer…gratefully just stress. This past year also saw great opportunities. I was a moderator to an incredible panel of women in tech for Girls Who Code. I attended two tech conferences with friends that allowed for great memories. The best moments being our two trips to NH with the second trip, being a part of my sister-in-law’s wedding. Being able to host and share memories with family here at our home. As well as discovering places […]
Craig and I hosted Christmas this year, since we’re not sure if this will be our last year at this home or not. We love being able to share the place with everyone and throw a fun party. This year we had planned on family trickling through but everyone actually came all together and stayed late. We had fun trying to do karaoke with the Apple TV, and Chinese Grab bag presents was interesting as usual. As has become tradition over the past few years, we took a picture with all of the girl cousins together. I’m very privileged to get to call these ladies family.
I’ve kept relatively quiet pre and post-election regarding politics. A few posts here and there, and everyone has confirmed for me why I don’t venture down that road. No argument will be won here. No amount of truth, science or rational logic will sway someone who is dead set on believing their opinion is the only right one. Time is the only real truth teller, and not with rosy-colored hindsight. We’ve had crazy presidents, crazy racist presidents in our past, and a nation who didn’t want to help the Jews, who didn’t want to get involved, who’s business people aired on wanting to be on the right side of history monetarily rather than ethically. We certainly do not have some utopian, rolling green hills of perfection past we’ve stepped away from. Given that, to all who voted for Trump, in […]
Anyone who truly knows me, knows I am one of the last people to ever trump (pun intended) out the gender card or give any preference to one side or the other. To be clear, I’m not doing that now, just making an observation on progress. I actually got a little teary eyed tonight during the convention speeches. Now don’t look away just yet. It was during the moment when Arizona declared their delegates and the 102 year old woman belted out the number for Hillary. I wouldn’t say I take it for granted, but I do forget sometimes how many amazing, strong and inspiring women have been in my life and have come before me in my own family. My ancestors pilgrimaged across the ocean to have freedom and landed somewhere near a rock in Plymouth MA. I grew […]
As I’m working through how to come out of burn out and not repeat this cycle again; the thought occurred to me that I need to slow down…way down. The statement, “you’re burning the candle at both ends” has been quite true for me for several years now. Today though, while driving around and enjoying the scenery, a light bulb went off in my head. This may seem completely obvious to everyone else, keeping with the candle analogy, you can rebuild a candle but you can’t do it while you’re still burning it. Here’s to calling it quits on work by 10pm at night. The 1am-3am quitting hours are not possible if I want to live a normal life in this time zone. Further proof that 12 hour days aren’t productive boons, news made it here that Sweden is looking to move to a 6-hour […]
I’ve been coming to the White Mountains region of New Hampshire, specifically Franconia Notch since I was 5 years old. Every summer my parents would make the trip up here for two weeks in August. It became my home away from home. I shared my love of this area with Craig (my boyfriend at the time) and he too saw why it was so great to get away here. In November of 1998 he drove me here, up to one of the scenic turnouts on the Kancamagus, in the snow, and handed me a box. I had already found out he was going to propose, but he didn’t know that, and he still was able to throw me off. The box was not small, but rather a 9 x 9 x 5 box. I opened it to find a binder […]
This is trip is a vacation for all intent-and-purposes, but it’s got a second role, a company retreat. The company being the two person venture of CRIANA. In May I was elated, events were finally aligning where I could truly go solo and focus my energy, skills and time on our business idea. Increased work came in from a client who I had been working with for over 2 years, excellent this was happening! I thought, great now my part time side clients can truly get the attention they need and deserve. I will finally have time to do everything I want to do. Except that didn’t quite happen. I’ve been busy, some weeks swamped, so swamped just before vacation I fell asleep with my laptop on my lap at 6:45pm. What I did not realize is that I had […]